I began this program five weeks ago. It took me two weeks before I even opened anything on the website. I received an email today wanting to know how much weight I have lost and I have gained 17. I have been impacted by 13 years of working in a traumas of the worst kind any human beings can experience providing crisis and supports. I no longer work in that job, and I am realizing how much this job has impacted me to my very soul. The idea of tackling all this vicarious trauma is overwhelming and at the same time needs to be done. I use food as my instant guadification and comfort. Also, my self harm. I have food intolerances and these area the foods I punish myself with the most. I really only need to lose the 17 pounds I recently have gained. I need to learn how to respect myself and treat myself like I would others. Where and how can I start this program and not cause so much more harm to myself in the process?